Love Is Patient. <3

"If you want me to wait, I would wait for you. If you tell me to stay, I would stay right through."

The fact that every day I wake up and the first thing that pops into my head is July 10th, is sad alone. But it's even worse that I'm thinking about it right before I go to sleep. So that basically means, I'm thinking about it almost every single second.

Something else I'm thinking about is June 16th. Now, that's a little closer, but I need it to come just as much. I need those new stories, I need those new lyrics, I need those metaphors that connect my life with theirs.

Gah, I sound so dramatic. I promise I'm not. But one thing I do promise. I'm pretty sure "Turn Right" will sing me to sleep for a while. And "Much Better" will make me want to go dancing, along with "Hey Baby." Swoon. I kind of adore that song.

And if "Black Keys" is what I think it's about, it's exactly what I needed. Now that's a song, people. Recognizing the real beauty of the world and people. Could possibly sing me to sleep on those tough nights as well.

Anywho, July 10th. So there's this little issue that I spent 400 bucks on VIP; I think I have too high of hopes. And that scares me. Just because this one day will mean the entire world to me if all goes well. And if it doesn't go almost perfect, I could slowly fade away from this whole adventure. And that scares me even more. Now that I think about it, lots of things scare me.

I'm afraid things people say aren't true, that I won't be accepted, that I'm gonna be left, I'm afraid that this love I have could be just a waste of time, I'm afraid I'll have to let you go, things might not be as great as they seem, I'm also afraid that this isn't meant to be more than a dream.

But I have hope, I have faith, that someday. Things will change, and you'll finally see me. And that all my dreaming and wishing will be worth it.

But that's not going to happen unless I Turn Right. I have to Turn Right; but love is patient, so I have to wait for the right time. For everthing. I have to be patient for June 16th, for July 10th, for love, for life, and everything in-between.